Allie Through the Looking Glass

Sometimes I feel like Alice in Wonderland. I take one pill to make me go up, another pill to make me go down, yet another to make me focus on the task at hand. I take so many pills every day I can't swallow them in one go but rather three swallows of handfuls of…

It’s Not You, It’s Me

I'm sorry if I seem uninterested Or I'm not listenin', or I'm indifferent Truly I ain't got no business here But since my friends are here, I just came to kick it But really I would rather be at home all by myself -Here by Alessia Cara The first time I heard Here by Alessia…

You Might As Well Live

When I was in high school I read a poem by Dorothy Parker called Resume about the methods of suicide and this poem burrowed its way into my head and never let go. This poem led to the most morbid mother-daughter research project to ever occur. For months we researched the different methods of suicide…

You Can Take Your Yoga & Shove It

I like yoga. I do. I like taking a random ten minutes out of my day to stretch and relax and focus on nothing but my breathing. I can appreciate yoga for what it is. I'm also aware of what it's not. Yoga is not medication. It is not a way to treat chronic depression…

Degrees of Madness

Sometimes I feel like I have no right to complain about my mental issues. I feel like my life has always been pretty average with no addiction, cutting, or BIG issues that often occur with mental illness. And somehow that makes my problems less.  Like, my degree of madness is somehow less than others, like…

Write When You Can

I decided I wanted to be a writer when I was in elementary school. I loved writing stories about my family, alien abductions, and a billion other topics. My favorite day was library day when I'd check out the maximum number of books and devour them in every free moment I found, sitting on the…

My Shadow Friend

We've all seen the commercials about depression that shows a shadowy figure lurking and pulling at a person as they wear a smiling mask trying to hide their sadness behind it. We've heard the description of depression as an all-consuming thing that takes over every aspect of a person's life until they become nothing but their…